For a while now I have been struggling to keep up with my resolve to write or paint something new whenever time permits or health blows apart. Just so I can keep adding stuff here, keep things constructive even if mundane and keep this website going. Most days, I don’t find the time. Sometimes, I only manage to write a few lines. Like this one here. I wanted to expand on this poem… But after (I don’t know how long it has been since I wrote it) looking at it and trying to add a verse to it for about a full, solid minute, the only inspiration that struck was, “Fuck it!”

So,there you have it. That’s the origin story of this post! Also, the thing about adding creative content on social media and blogs is that you are supposed to engage with other people’s content as well. I used to think that that was one of the two ways to increase your followers, the other being the quality of content. But I have been a while on Instagram and I gradually found out that unlike big boobs and toned, cellulite-free thighs, quality is overrated. Since I rarely have the time to post my content, I never have the time to engage with others. At least that’s the reason I give myself when I see the number of views on my social media platforms. You gotta keep coming up with fancy arguments to keep the Ego happy, people!

That’s been my general attitude to writing poetry lately. Same goes for drawing. I have this huge project coming up in February and I’m already freaked out by how little prep I have done. One might say it goes with the field I chose but hey, it’s my website which means I am allowed to have a full-scale panic attack before I go ahead and slay my demons. Yes, I said it. I said the first cliché that popped into my head and I’m only 80% ashamed. Hah! Take that inner monsters!

You might ask why the heck am I telling you all this? Well, because I thought that if I suddenly deleted my website, without any warning to the two people out there who do take the time to visit my posts, they might feel a tiny bit concerned (hey, one can hope empathy still exists!) and most definitely, a little sad by the void left by my kooky poems and even kookier art!

I am still not entirely sure whether I should or would delete the website. At this point I’m sporting a dark, defeatist attitude toward the world in general and now, toward managing Time as well. It might be just a temporary state of mind. Have you ever felt doing away with social media altogether? Anyway, I wish you, you who took the time to patiently get through this rambling series of thoughts, a wonderful weekend. 🙂

Disclaimer: In the “rant” above, the writer was being facetious. Neither does she hold anything against big boobs and well toned, cellulite-free thighs. Also, while writing this disclaimer, the writer found it incredibly satisfying to refer to herself in the third person. That was until, she was reminded of sharing this eccentric trait with an orange shell of a man occupying the highest office in a country which strangely never ever shies away from calling itself the “leader” of the world even as it keeps getting caught while desperately trying to give itself a blow-job! 🙄


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  1. I understand that feeling of despondency. That it’s all a time-consuming exercise in filling time, that no one cares a hoot, that all that matters are the stats. And I see such shit posted, masquerading as creativity, and I do wonder what’s the point. But when I look at yours, I see someone who cares for something more than stats, who takes the time, who reaches deep to answer that insistent call of inspiration. While I’d understand it if you quit, I say, DON’T. Please. There are too few like you.

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    1. Thank you for your wonderful and kind words, Crispina. They touched me and truly, meant a lot to me. I took a complete break from everything I was involved in, and in that peaceful silence realized that since my work, lately, has been unproductive, everything else has gone up in flames as well. Which is something not unusual for me! 🙂 I might not be up to writing or drawing for a while now.  Or, at least, won’t be sharing any posts. Can’t find inspiration if there’s no joy. But I’ll keep the website. And I’ll keep checking in here to find your wonderful poetry or one of those breath-taking country shots you take! 

      You are so very thoughtful and sincere. Again, thank you for reaching out. I appreciate it. ❤️

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      1. I’d say it’s in the nature of the… call it the creative type… to be sensitive the vibes around them. I know there are times I totally withdrawn. So, yes, I recognise it in aother. To withdraw, to heal, to recharge and energise, to rewrite the story so you can begin again, anew

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  2. I tried to comment yesterday. You can’t leave. I see Crispina has put in in complete perspective. The selfish me doesn’t want you going anywhere. OK I’ll say it here. There are a handful of people I can honestly say I love you to and you’re one of them. I’m not sure what to do if this comment doesn’t appear and you don’t respond. ❤

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    1. Aww, Jen! I just don’t know what to say to that… I love you too. You have always been such an encouraging, supportive friend. Thank you so much for writing to me and thank you for being you. You’re a wonderful person! ❤️


      I am keeping the website but I won’t be making posts as often for a while. But i’ll keep popping in to read your stories so keep writing, love! 


  3. OK I found a page to write this on. Hmm what was I gonna say? I’m losing my short turn memory.
    OH! YA! now I remember!
    HAPPY or RESTFUL Holiday! Or just restful. Heck you know what I mean. 😊🌹

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    1. Oh sweet, sweet, Jen! I just got back from my Christmas celebration so no rest for me yet. But I wish you Happy Holidays and if you celebrate Christmas, than a very merry Christmas to you, hun. I hope you are having a good time. Have an extra marshmallow in your hot cocoa as my gift to you! 😉🤗😘 Or, whatever your like… Have an extra large piece of it. Love you! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😘😘😘😘😊😊😊😊🎅🎄🦌✨✨✨

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